Every day I sit in our teacher lunchroom and enjoy a few minutes with colleagues while I eat my lunch. Lately lunch has been great! I have been having new conversations with two lovely ladies who are EdTechs at our school. Their schedule changed and for the last few months they join us for lunch. There’s just one problem, I don’t know their names.
It is my first year at this school, but it’s March, I can’t really play the “I’m new here” card anymore. For a week or so I listened intently to try to listen for any clues or anyone greeting them by their name. Unfortunately I was stuck saying “Hiiii! How are ya?” every day. I would try to sing the “hi” to draw it out and not make it awkward. In the back of my mind I felt so fake. Why didn’t I introduce myself sooner?
Finally on Wednesday, at the end of lunch, I took a deep breath and did it.
“I’m embarrassed to say this, but I am just going to do it. I can’t believe I don’t know this, but what is your name?”
When she replied “Amy” I whispered and asked her for the other EdTech’s name. “Carol” she said. But as she was saying “Carol” I forgot her name! It was like my anxiety blacked out my memory! I started to panic when finally Amy came back into my brain. Amy Amy Amy I repeated to myself.
“and my name is Cindy by the way.” I replied.
Phew! I thought. I now know Carol and Amy, two great woman who do so much to help students in our school. It made me wonder, why is it so hard to ask for someone’s name? Why do I instantly forget a name when I’m introduced unless I am consciously repeating it to myself? Am I that self-absorbed?